Hi Cuties! It's me.
I wanted to share some photos with you that I asked (well...begged) my hubby to take of me so I could remember my first time being 28 and 30 weeks pregnant. In the midst of feeling absolutely awful, I knew that I needed to document this priceless time in my life, as I will only be able to experience my first pregancy once. And by that I think I mean it was an effort to help me rescript my pregnancy. To view it as magic, to *see* the magic. Because deep down, I knew it was there even though I have felt anything but magical this entire pregnancy.
Long story short...it worked. These photos have abolsutely helped me see the magic. And I'm so grateful.
I am writing this at 36 weeks pregnant, in awe that suddenly I will be approaching birth now after what has felt like 30000 million years of pregnancy, and I cannot believe it. I still feel 15 weeks pregnant! And I have a little bit of fear about the next chapter. I have become familiar with the discomfort and incapacitation that this pregnancy has laid before me, and I am scared of the unknown fourth trimester, and parenthood. What if it's all so much harder than this pregnancy, or completely different. Or...what if it is magical? But in the here and now, still carrying this life yet unknown inside me, I am so blissfully aware that these photos are a perfect tribute to ALL the moments in both my 28th week and 30th weeks of pregnancy. They do not erase the never-ending struggles of pregnancy. Rather, they help me see all that PLUS SO MUCH MORE. They help me see the power of my body, and the power of Little One's body. And I am so grateful and cannot believe I have had the honour of carrying this baby.
I cannot wait to meet you and show you all the wonderful things of this world.
We will always love you Little One. x
The last photo of Rupert and I by the very talented Marielle Membreno. She also took our engagement photos.